Why do businesses offer FREE consultations in order to find out anything about them? They waste their money on pages full of fluffy…these are the organizations I belong to, this is stuff I do, here is a picture of me smiling-aren’t I pretty and pretending … Read More →
Category Archives: Retrospective
Lovely Houston…
What the hell am I doing here still? I should have left ages ago. Its cold, silent wind blows through the trees and lands in my head with a loud thud. This is expectation. I expected myself to change the world, have the perfect family … Read More →
Houston
So here we are in Houston, and I hate it. We got rid of our beautiful house for some 800 sq. ft. apartment POS where the neighbors are perpetually doing construction upstairs. I can’t find a day care center under $200 a week and Solaris … Read More →
Dying…
I thought “ok, this is great, it was rough at first but everything will work out in the end.” David had an interview for a realy (really, really) great job that he probably would have been a shoe-in for. We sent out his resume, he … Read More →
While I am here…
Here I am stuck in this dirty little town with trees falling away, towed under with ignorance and greed. They treat the people the way they treat the trees and all the children here are mad and lost, running around in philosophical crisis trying to … Read More →
Retrospect-ish
Oh the “-ish”, for old times sake. Looking back through the pages and pages of previous blogging between this one and the 2003 one, I’m amused. I begin to see glimmers of things that I supposably lost over the ages: strength, heart, confusion, innocence (he … Read More →
Now what?
So now I don’t even know what to do. Hopefully writing this will give me some sort of insight. I just called David to see if he had my ATM card (which is not suppose to be) because I found a twenty dollar charge on … Read More →
Trouble a brewing
He looks at me “we’re moving up north, i need away from them.” Thinking about the life I had, and how to blend two babies and a boy into the mix does not look promising. We’re heading up in May for K and S’s wedding, … Read More →
Train
A train runs silently through the woods, great desperate swirls of frustration leading to one tragically dramatic thought after another. I thought I would vent here, but I now that I’ve started I seemed to have lost the motivation. Maybe I will just track a … Read More →
What do I want to be when I grow up?
I’ve spent the last few months (years?) trying to figure out what I want to do for a living…I’ve decided my own company would be the best route considering the fact I’d love to see my hard work and effort go towards my own baby … Read More →